My First Post

Helow everyone, im trying to think what what my first post will be. Maybe I should just start with giving you a story of my blog experience way back high school when friendster was still the most popular social networking site back then. My friendster blog was all about my highschool life more specifically what my lovelife was. Anyway my english literacy is still low haha and i think my grammar still sucks big time haha. Maybe you cant even understand my point or what im trying to say haha anyway so much for that.

From this point onwards, my real first post will commence haha..

This evening as i lay in my bed and play the psp of brother, a message suddenly appeared in my phone. I got a txt message from my very gorgeous friend haha and somehow she's sad so the next scenario was me loading up and texted her right away. She's crying because  after her dream this morning, she realized she's still brokenhearted still in the process of forgetting someone she loves so much. I can still feel her as i write down my thoughts, just like her im still in the process of moving on maybe i haven't started yet. She told me that loving someone so much or too little is bad. Somehow I agree with her but in my own opinion, loving someone very much is ok. Giving your 100% love to a person is the norm of love. You shouldn't hold back, you should just love someone by showing the best that you can do. Maybe it's just me, this have been my principle since the first time i loved someone at the same time look at me, ive been broken for 4 times already haha and now im feeling lonely every night,every day waiting for her text and telling me she's okay.
Maybe this is just what love is, You love someone then you get broken hearted then you start to move on and love again. After the 3rd time ive felt broken, i told myself ill never love again, im too much afraid to love again that's why i suppressed my feelings for some quite some time until i cant hold on, ive risked myself and then this is what happened to me, broken for the 4th time and really having a difficult time to hold on or move on. It's to hard to move on damn! theres no formula for moving on except the formula of Papa Jack of TLC, when you move on first accept things, say sorry say thank you then move on..

If you're trying to ask me now if i can move on, as for now i cant answer that. i cant still leave her as long as she continues to cry, be hurt in her relationship. all i can do is pray that ill be strong enough to hold on, and when the time comes that it is so much for me too handle, i pray the Lord that he will send me a girl who is kind enough to help me stand back again and hopefully she will be one that will accept my love..

So long.. At last my first post is complete..
Sorry for the wrong use of grammar haha and thank you for dropping by and for reading my first post.