4th Place

Wish i had one...means more a lot than all the medals and trophies in the world..

i woke up at 4am this morning, actually i didnt manage to have a good sleep because i woke up hour by hour maybe because im really nervous at the same time pressured after i was informed that one of my classmeyts got a perfect score in the quiz bee in tax and hailed as the champion omg, she's really amazing, im really nervous because im thinking that i cant be like her or something like that, i decided to browse my books but eventually i failed haha i just listen to my mp3 to relax a bit and decided to start my day. when i saw my fellow classmeyts who were also participants of course i somehow felt that im not ready but doubts began to feel my thoughts and eventually the contest proper started and the first to seat in and fill the aura of tremendous pressure landed on the fifth place, of course that's not bad, i know she did her best, well after her was my idol of course, the one and only queen of practical accounting 1 in our school, and she emerge victorious being the champion again in the same board subject, i said to myself, they were really amazing, i have 2 classmates who were champion in their respective forte subjects, i said to myself i also want to be a champion so that ill have something to be proud of, ill be ashamed if i didnt have any medal to bring back home, im really nervous and pressured at that time, when they said farewell to me and wishing me goodluck, i felt sad, im alone so i treated myself to lunch and after that prayed at the nearby church, i prayed the lord that he might want to give me this contest, and im practically begging him because ive always longed to be a winner someday, it was my dream. the other contestant arrived and we talk for a while both of us wants to have a good news to our fellow classmates, i took a quick nap for a while and then the time came for me to show my guts and my knowledge, and the hell the contest started and for the first easy question i got a wrong answer, that made my confidence level surge below, i was pissed off for myself until the second question came, and damn ive got the wrong answer, then problem questions followed,  i somehow regained my confidence level a bit because i answered correctly questions 3 to 7 but problems 8-10 was a very disappointing problems to me because they were easy problem questions and the result, ye i landed to be the second lowest scorer then the long problem of the average round followed, i lost hope at the questions because its 4 questions interconnected, i really guessed due to my lack of knowledge/forgot how to do it and the time was really short luckily my wild guess in question number 3 was a right one but practically that long problem was a disaster question.. i paused for a while and said to the lord please give me knowledge and please guide me to the correct answer and that i dont want to give up, and somehow i survive that round because after that all my average questions were correct. i spent the ten minute break pondering why the hell did i miss those easy questions and trying to fight and continue the battle.. the difficult round was a blast, i manage to got only 1 wrong answer until the turning point question number 10... if i got it ill be 3rd but if not ill be a loser again.. after i raised my answer and heard the correct answer.. i said thereafter... im a loser again... im really sad and disaappointed.. if i got the correct answers in the easy round i still had the chance to be the champion but im such a big loser nagkalat ako sa round na iyon.. im really pissed off that's why i left the room... my other companion garnered the 4th place also.. he is telling me it's ok, i just nod but deep inside me, im really not ok... im really close to my goal of having a medal before i graduated.. i texted someone dear to me and said its ok im still the winner for her but i just cant relieved the fact that i lost again... i really cried when i came home because i didnt brought a medal to my family specially for her, i really wanted her to be proud of me, i have nothing to own besides my dream and yet i was close to this dream but i failed again..i cried a lot that night... after the tears subside, i texted her and told her to wait for me, ill be back to get a medal for her, and when that time comes ill treat her out.. she replied that she'll wait she'll look forward to that time so i wipe my tears and said to myself I'LL DO MY VERY BEST TO BE THE CHAMPION on the NCR CUP AUDITING PROBLEM for my love one, for my friends and for my family with the guidance and blessings from the Lord. Ill promise that ill study super duper hard to bring home a single piece of medal ive been dreaming for since im no longer a laude. i want them ti be proud of me and to be able to prove to them that i can win also.