Life as of now

Ilang buwan na rin ang nakalipas. Ang dami ng nangyari. Honestly, sa mga oras na ito, naiisip ko kung nagrereview ba siya or nakatulog na. Malapit na kasi siyang magtake ng nursing board exam sa u.s. i hope she pass that exam she has waited long and exerted so much effort just to ensure she'll pass it. that's her dream after all. After all the dramas, heartaches and troubles we had during a couple of months we have decided to just be friends.. I still love her thou im just pretending im not. It is better this way i know its hard to pretend i dont love her anymore, its hard to pretend that i dont know she's inlove with other guy. Ye its hard but i just have to endure it. As long as she is happy with him its fine with me. What matters to me is her happiness not mine thou i still have a lot if regrets for all the things i have done. I will just be friend with her, supporting her all the way, never to leave her again, up until i can no longer take it. It hurts that once upon a time i had the chance, once upon a time i felt that she has feelings for me and then now it's all gone. well i deserve this after all..