I hate this day.. My pc just crashed, it hurts so much because my very impt files are there, the pictures of my 3rd love, the video of my surprise for her last valentines day, the pictures of our one day of being together, the original photos of my love letters for her, all those very important files that ive kept and treasured are now gone.. it really saddens me tears are falling down damn. I have no one to talk to so i texted her to somehow help me ease the sadness im feeling right now. Eventually i still continues to cry haha but not because of sadness, it is because of happiness whew.. im happy because although im not her love she's still there for me, she said "do you know what i like best to you, you never let me feel im less important and you are always here to care for me, compare to what you did, this is nothing, i should be the one to thank you, you are more important than my problem. Its ok" after that i nearly melt haha i said to myself is that how she views me? my god im really happy and then flashback appears haha hoping again that she will realize someday that i really love her despite im only like this hehe drama much lol just let me be hehe this is a way of expressing my thoughts and feelings. Im flowing with so much love for her knowing she has a problem again with her bf but she said its not the time to tell me, im more important. her message really hit me, i feel being given importance, i feel being cared for. I like the feeling i really really like what she message to me.
In order to comfort me more and to move on with my broken pc, i chat with my 2 other beautiful friends haha. Everytime i talk to them, i really enjoy it, they keep on bashing me haha and of course letting me feel better. I really thank them for being good friends to me that i can share them my stories with no hesitations, that they are the ones i can lean on in times of my sadness and my happy stories.
I thought this is just another ordinary day but really life is full of surprises. I didnt expect this kind of story this evening. another meaningful message from her worth keeping are reading all over and over again haha i will be scolded again by my beautiful friends haha lol.
And by the way, please do pray for me i mean that my "future textmate" will give her number haha. im really looking forward to her number haha. so that ill be given new things to look for hehe but still anything starts from being friends hehe. good night and god bless to all of you haha. thanks for reading my post.
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