These past few weeks, ive been going to school everyday because of some organization work to do. This sem is bombarded with activities until the last day of class this year, it is really exhausting, this is the part of my life when im trying to balance academics and responsibilities in the organization but somehow i can manage to work it out considering that my position is not that physically and emotionally demanding that's why i do not regret that i became a part of the organization. Im trying to be busy in order to let my emotional side relax haha. I miss texting her but i cant talk the topics i want to share to her. When she asks me whats wrong all i can say is nothing. Of course i dont want her to know that im in pain because of her. At least when im busy somehow i can lessen my thinking time about her. Im trying to focus more on studies and on my responsibilities. We had a test in a major exam this day, and somehow it is really not difficult but im careless in some numbers what the hell haha but somehow it's ok because I know for myself that I learned more than the others. It is really not that hard to accept if you just do your best, it may hurt a little but it is easy to get up back again. Scores are just mere scores that will be reflected in the class card at the end of the sem. What more important to me is the lessons ive learned, the lessons i traded in my sleep just to learn it, the number of days ive sacrificed my health my very precious time in sleeping in order to help myself to fulfill my dreams. At the end of the day all I want is to feel that it's ok, i did my best and i feel fulfilled. Next week will be a very busy week again but im sure that i can survive it with the help of the Lord. Just pray when you're down and you'll manage to take on a day. I can say that i can sleep soundly after this day and somehow put a smile in my face so Lord guide my love and hope she is well now because she's sick and that she'll be safe when she goes home.
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